justrun-.

Kekule's Dream

While mugging chem today i was reminded of the hilarious story about the discovery of the benzene ring structure. I laughed so hard during the lecture that i started tearing. It was especially funny when MrLoy did the (very expressive) voice over of Kekule.. rotfl.

Here's a bit of what's in our notes.. i think it's so hilarious..

Friedrich August Kekule von Stradonitz was a German chemist who investigated chemical bonds, suggested that carbon was tetravalent, and introducted the use of the term organic chemistry ofr the chemistry of carbon compounds.

In 1865, Kekule was working on the chemical structure of benzene. He was fed up with his data which made no sense as a long chain molecule. One night, in his comfy chair...

I turned my chair to the fire and dozed. Again the atoms were gambolling before my eyes. My mental eye, rendered more actue by repeated visions of this kind, could now distinguish larger structures, of manifold conformation; long rows, sometimes more closely fitted together; all twining and twisting in a snakelike motion.

But look! What was that?

One of the snakes had seized hold of its own tail, and the form whirled mockingly before my eyes. As if by a flash of lighting I awoke.

From that vision, Kekule's concept of the six-carbon benzene ring was born. Let us learn to dream, then perhaps we shall find the truth.

Haha it's really more funny when you hear MrLoy say it out :D Especially the part about his mental eye, gambolling atoms and the "BUT LOOK! WHAT WAS THAT?" hahahah. Just picturing this bearded man saying all this infront of a fireplace is really quite amusing. Either that or i'm easily amused.

I have a stomachache (again). sigh.

Yesterday wangjiaolian told me something that made me jerk myself back to reality. Months have passed.. yet I am afraid to keep track of time because I don't want to believe any of it was true. So to ease the pain i just block it out... emotions, thoughts.. i HAVE to block it out, or else i'll just feel so miserable, like i was for quite a long while. But at the same time i don't want to block it out.. i want to feel the pain..all of it. i want to feel like there was something real behind those memories... how could your existence be reduced to nothing more than memories? you deserve so much more..

So I repeatedly replay all the memories in my head, hoping that by doing so i will permanently remember every single moment I had with you. Every single moment of laughter, every conversation.. So afraid to forget.... sigh.

Anyway, aside from that, there's also the sudden change in focus and schedule of my life. Back at training I'm suddenly the slowest. Upon telling the pot that i felt so darn slow, he said "ni mei lai xun lian dang ran hen man la!". I've never been told off for not coming for training enough for the past who knows how long. Ok he wasn't exactly telling me off, but aghh. sigh. Then there are people who are preparing for these major comps while i'm....STILL... studying for exams/ unfit to resume full-blown training. I don't know, i just feel.. shortchanged. I guess it doesn't hurt as much to talk about it now, but i still miss the old training regime. Sometimes the only thing that keeps me mugging during the day is the thought of resuming 9 sessions/week training after promos. Then again, things are so different now. Training.. isn't like it used to be when you were around. How long will it take me to get back to the form that i was in? Will i ever be able to get back? What's to come of all those dreams i had...

Fond memories of spending 2hrs piah-ing the Macritchie hills with jiaolian (: meeting the turtle! then the exhilarating bike rides- 3hrs of selarang hills! or the monotonous marina south loops. Swim sessions during the sch hols when you'd occasionally prance through the entrance half an hour late. "wo shi lai zhe bian wan er yi!" or "I came here to warm down after my other training -gigantic grin-". I still remember our last swim trng before the trials. Relay!!!!! Was so fun, cos we'd never done relay during training. Your first and last training at Bishan- the 400s. Warming down while singing songs playing over the (super loud) radio.

Your last sms.. "talk 2mr k, i'm quite panic now.."

:( If only i could have all of that back..

zzzzzzz :(

This is quite random but i think i'm really fortunate to have such great teachers in school (: it wasn't like that in rg.. if only i'd studied harder back then :(((( AGHH. having visions of failing promos :( trying to try harder but it's gotten to the point where i can't get anything right! keep on getting wrong answers which is so demoralizing :"(

NEHHH :( if only i had dreams as profound and intellectually stimulating as kekule..

[pat]* decided to runaway-.

put on her shoes at [20:23]

and took [20070907] strides

it's the passion that drives you